Well, that day happened and I had so many interests, how was I supposed to choose where to go to college let alone choose what I wanted to do for the rest of my life? Whether it was being a physicist, neurosurgeon, ballet dancer, attorney, pianist, graphic designer, singer, pastry chef or pet rescuer, I seriously could not decide. I wanted to do it all...yes every single one. So guess what, I procrastinated and ended up completely frustrated, I didn't become any of them.
It took a couple of years (ok, ok twelve to be exact) for a light bulb to click somewhere in this far reaching brain of mine. In a conversation with an awesome friend, she asked a very simple question that no one had ever asked me before.
"What is it that you love to do most?"
Profoundly simple, trust me I know. The question stunned me into silence as it bounced around in my head. I've always been asked, "What are you good at?" Well I'm good at quite a few things but haven't found something that I'm actually head over heels in love with.
It took me all of about two seconds of silence before I gave my good friend an answer. In that moment, I had instantly fallen in love with a forgotten passion and I finally knew what it is I wanted to do...
I want to write.
Writing has been with me my whole life. Ever since the end of my first day of kindergarten when I stepped out of that sunny classroom door, I was bursting through the seams with hope and determination. On the way home, I practically skipped my way off the bus and burned through the rubber soles of my shoes unable to contain my excitement. I was completely enthralled with all of the wonderful things I would soon be learning. I asked my mom to help me write about it.
Through middle school and high school, writing was something I was pretty good at and even managed to win a couple of awards. I pulled out those old plaques and set them on my desk for inspiration. I can't believe how long I've kept them.
Never would I have thought to look for something that I hadn't realized was lost...the determination of a little girl filled with a bright future.
Funny how things work.
Now I get to do something that I absolutely love, and writing is something that I actually have to learn how to get better at. Knowledge is quite fascinating.
